FRIENDS-sensitive issue in my life

it was the 4th day since i left UiTM four this semester break.. i wonder why should i miss all those frightening things i had to face since im away from home and meet new people then got alienated in the world i never wish for.. i'd prefer to be home.. but now , hardly , i miss all that i have there- SABAH.. its not really that bad , is it? and.. today is my exbestfriend birthday.. i wish her a very great happy birthday this year and the all the years after today.. i miss the moment that we shared few years ago.. since we were kids.. its nice to have somebody beside you and care about you friend.. as im in Sabah , i cant even tell you , am i the same friendly person that you ever know or maybe i'd change a lot? to all my roommates and other friends.. im sorry if i'd ever broke you all hearts.. im sorry that i cant be the one that you all might like as a friend.. im sorry that i cant be the one.. this is me and this is what i wanna became.. no one can ever replace my exbestfriend.. no other friends could understand me better.. thanks for treating me such way.. i do appreciate the test that you had given me so that i can be a new bravier person.. dont worry about me.. im alright.. and i will be ok.. but yet.. you all should know how precious.. how value you all are to me.. friend isnt always there for you but they are always in your hearts and that is what i became.. eventhough im not much just a bloody jerk , you all will always be a friend of mine.. in my only heart.. im sorry that im not there for you all.. i hope you all would understand why all this while i cant get along with you all.. i cant lie and i dont want to lie.. friends , you are seriously a sensitive issue of my life.. that experience change me to be what i m now.. sincerely , you all are such a wonderful friends i ever met.. thanks for being there when i need you all.. may you all happy always with all your partners..

~to you Nurul Ain: HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY &
MAY ALLAH ALWAYS BLESS YOU &
GUIDE YOU IN LIFE.. AMIN~