dedication for you.. SUNSHINE

I PROMISE TO LOVE YOU FOREVER...
i won't give up..
i can't let go of you..
you take the breath right out of me..
do you love me?
sometimes i just wish you would notice me..
you are all kinds of perfect..
i am sorry i need you as much as i do..
there is nothing more that i want..
just to be with you..
i need you so much closer..
it is amazing how one day..
someone walk into your life..
& suddenly you can't live without them.
you don't understand how much your words stay in my head..
don't hide your love away..
love is putting up with someones bad qualities..
because they somehow complete you..
you see right through me..
if i ever write a story about my life..
don't be surprise if your name appears a million trillion times.
it seems everytime i am finding close to your heart..
you push me back away..
i love you..
don't forget that ever..
my world are black & white..
until the day you walk through the door
& into my heart..
i don't want to be a stranger..
sometimes..
your mind don't want you to be in love..
but..
deep down you know you are..
how could i ever leave you..
when will i get the chance to say..
I LOVE YOU
im torn & broken..
when i fall asleep..
you are all that i can see..
you make my dreams come true..
all my life..
i have been looking for someone like you.
i never want you to think you are less than amazing..
the sun loses it's job because you brighten my day..
it's not i want to be the only girl in your life..
i just want to be the only one that matters..
i will never leave you..
i will never hurt you..
i will never stop loving you..
i wish you were here with me..
if i have to choose between loving & breathing..
i will use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU..
& there's nothing you can do to stop me..
sometime's i close my eyes..
& wish so hard that you would be mine.
i only took one word from you
for me to realise that you are the only person
i want to share my life with.
wanna know how much i love you?
put your head up to my heart..
you will find out how fast my heart beats.
i love when you look at me..
coz i know that for a second
i have crossed your mind..
never give up..
on a person you can't go
a day without thinking about..
love is giving a chance
for someone to destroy you &..
trusting them not to do so..
you make me draw that stupid heart..
so just let it out..
& tell me what you really feel..
im gonna wait for you..

leavin..

im gonna leave for another new day.
if its worth to wait, i will wait but.. if its not?
why should i?
keep on hurting myself in a world i can't even describe.
what should i do?..
somebody told me ..
" why should you care about someone who actually never care about you.
about your feelings.. about what you have done for their sake of happiness.
you cried so much just to make others laugh.
why don't you try to make your life worth a minute of joy?
let you cry coz you are happy not coz you are screaming in pain"
in a second i think about it..
she might be right, but how if its me who can't do it?
another person said..
" you are quite stubborn than what i thought you can be..
why should you keep the pain yourself..
you realise that you are hurting yourself more often than others would do.
why don't you try to change and make all things upright in the first place.
You could share it to someone you trusted..
believe me.. you will be allright."
THEN..
i stop & continue on thinking..

HUH

IM GOING TO SMILE
LIKE NOTHING IS WRONG
TALK LIKE EVERYTHING IS PERFECT
ACT LIKE IT IS JUST A DREAM
AND PRETEND LIKE..
HE IS NOT HURTING ME..
HUH

I HATE!!!..

i hate that i can't hate you..
i hate the fact that i can' have you..
i hate the fact that you with her..
i hate the fact we once were..
i hate that i can't be with you..
I HATE THAT I STILL LOVE YOU!

why i lied to you..

you ask me why i lied to you?
you wonder why i hide?
the reason is..
telling the truth is the hardest thing to do,
And the hardest thing to believe..
Truth burns..
lies are easier to say..
easier to accept..
I couldn't tell you,
BECAUSE..
I was lying when i said i didn't love you.